For those who usually read my blog posts, this one is a little intense!!
This morning, my heart feels heavy. Usually I wake up on Mondays really excited to jump into new projects, blog posts, and meeting new friends. But today I am overwhelmed, run-down, and pressed down with the thought of "why even try?"
There are SO many amazingly talented photographers in the market! I love learning from them, following along on Instagram, and hearing them pour out their hearts about their businesses. But today, as I have zero motivation and no desire to look at other's progress. Because (in my sin), all I can think about is "why are they succeeding when I'm still working two jobs? Why did that client book them instead of me? What makes their business thrive that mine doesn't have? When will I have that many Instagram followers?"
Ya'll, the comparison struggle is REAL. Every one of those statements focuses on the success of others (in an envious way), and is also focused on ME. I am saddened by my ability to so easily get entangled in it, but then I have to remember that I am a sinner saved by the grace of Jesus. I will always struggle with this for as long as there are other creatives in the business! But by God's grace, it doesn't have to own me. I have a choice to make.
I can either let comparison ruin my business, overwhelm me, and make me give up, OR I can daily ask the Lord to give me grace, to allow me to see other beautiful creatives with a loving heart and a joyful attitude.
I choose to strive for JOY.
Why do I choose joy? Well, let's talk about passion for a minute. Guys, my heart just EXPLODES when I am photographing a wedding! Michael and I have the blessing to be a part of the BEST day of a couple's life! As we photograph a husband and wife, we are reminded of our own wedding vows that we promised to each other almost two and a half years ago. We get to meet new people, hug family members, and celebrate (tears and all!) as a dad watches his little girl dance with her new husband. I squeal with delight (just ask Michael, it's a real thing!) when we are taking portraits and the light is just perfect! Why? Because we are creating something special JUST for our bride and groom. We are loving them by photographing their wedding in a way that will bring THEM joy when they see their pictures!
I choose joy today over comparison because I trust that the Lord has placed this passion for brides and grooms, creating beautiful photographs, and loving people as best as I can because He has designed me for this. I have to be in this business for our brides and grooms that we interact with daily. I can't be in it for me! I have to choose to keep striving for our KDP couples, because that's what really matters!
As this Monday continues, I am choosing joy. I am choosing to strive to be in prayer. I am choosing to love other creatives. What are you striving for today?
Hi there, sweet friends!
Head on over to our new blog to see our latest work! Michael and I are a husband & wife team who pursue our couples with intention because we believe that genuine love has been designed with a purpose. We shoot in Louisville, KY and love to travel!
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